July 04, 2011
Sorry I just need to vent.

I'm not sure if it's because it's near that time of the month but I'm really feeling very down.

[1] My work isn't going great. I feel that somehow my relationship with my team (my boss esp) is cracking. I know I'm not doing as hard work as they do. Neither am I doing something super techie like they do. But hey... I'm trying. And I'm using as much time as I can too. It's just that it really isn't enough.

[2] Life. I'm being very depressed about life. Baby baby baby. Fats fats fats. Hell.

[3] Family. I seriously seriously want to help. To give. More than what I am giving now. But I can only go so far. I'm employed. Meaning fixed amount of dough per month. If I have business I'd probably have more. And my parents seriously do not need what they call "barya" from me. But that barya is like 1/4 of my entire month's salary. I have this serious belief that I'm supposed to save 30-50% of my salary. Touch move. No arguements. Therefore I only have fixed amount of money to spend per month and I have tons of things to pay. What's left I want to give but it's being called barya and it hurts like hell.

[4] Life. I wish Duckie will treat me with respect and more kindness. I don't expect him to be as sweet as the rest of my friends' hubby. I don't expect a Coach or Longchamp. I'd be happy with a decent java code. Is that too much to ask?

1 comment:

Cookie Aguilar said...

sending you my cyber hugs!!! don't feel sad.... you are doing your best. and im here if you need a chat.

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