Autism and Divorce

Moving on is very difficult especially at the beginning of it all. It's difficult emotionally and financially. The money that will be coming out to pay the lawyers and all are ultimately the children's money. Call me greedy and all. But every single centavo counts.

I'm determined with the divorce. But I'm was still hoping that somehow he would realize he loves me and decide to beg us. But his honestly in saying he's neutral in his feelings for our Mamon crushed me again. Mamon did not chose to become autistic. It's not fault he is one. He may never be able to work in the future to support himself. But we are working hard to ensure he can take care of himself. But he needs all the help he can get. Saying you are neutral is heartbreaking. OMG. I can't even.

Pre-Lizard, I would tell my closest friends that should something happen to me, my Mamon will go to my sister. She would be able to properly care for him. While Paopao should stay here with his dad. He needs to take care of his dad. I don't want him to be alone. 

But. Looking at how our lives are going now. I realized my boys have to stay together. Form that bond so that they would take care of each other. I've been working hard on that aspect. So now. Should  anything happen to me, they will both go to my sister.

A brother is a friend given by nature.