Adulting

It's hard when you sincerely want to do coparenting but getting anger instead.

It's hard when you get accused of whatever when in fact you are the one who has been wronged.

All this on top of forgiving without receiving an apology.

You do things because you want to be morally right. Because you believe that the kids would need a father figure. I was told by one friend that I believe so much in traditional parenting. In the end I'm doing the father a favor (which he doesn't appreciate) at the expense of the kids. 

I have been seriously thinking of our future in Singapore. And one of the major decisions for staying back is that I want to keep the boys near the father as much as possible. Whether he want it or not. As long as they are accessible, even if they are not the priority, it's fine. Rather than zero. But again I'm being warned by friends that I have to be cautious. Till now I still consider him, when he so obviously hate it.

I don't know. I really do not want to hate. I don't even want my boys to have hate in their hearts. But I have to stand up for Mamon who is the constant subject of rejections. 

May God guide me in my decisions.